if anyone knows where i can find this pen plz let me know

I assume you're talking about the famous Parker Duofold senior-size in red permanite or hard rubber?

It may be found in varying levels of styles, abundance, states of repair, size, colour and price, on eBay. There are some very nice people here at the FPN who have eBay accounts and would gladly sell you one if you know what you're looking for.